it's come to this... truly sad

so tonight my mother called me and said i have crossed the line by posting a blog. i didn't say anything bad about my dad, just the truth. i told her i am tired of them judging me all the time and i told her my friends describe my family's behavior as "vicious." (that was a response to my sister's comment to my last post.) i was then told that until i recommit my life to Christ, they cannot have a relationship with me. well, i knew it was coming. i can't have a relationship with them, and i have been disowned, just because i am not the perfect christian they want me to be. their example of perfect christianity. what if i were to become an athiest (which i am not) or a lesbian? would they disown me for that? where is the love in this? my mother hung up on me. how is that christlike? why can't they love and accept me for who i am? and why can't i write a blog about the truth in my life? i didn't lie or misrepresent what happened with my dad the other day. again, i just don't get it, and i guess i don't have a family anymore.

my next posting will be a response to my sister's harsh and judgemental comment.

another day, another disagreement

let me start this off by saying, i love Jesus Christ with all my heart and soul, and i am a christian. i just don't get it sometimes. i am fully grown, and i am a pastor's daughter, have been all my life. i love the Lord and i know He takes care of me, and i would never want to live the life of someone who doesn't know Him. i always say i love the Lord, sometimes i just don't care for the people who work for Him. this blog will be a lot about that. i am also in the process of writing a book about my life as a pastor's daughter. but today and right now, i am in shock and awe. i am dating a wonderful man who is not a christian, and before everyone tells me, i know i am not supposed to be unequally yoked. but, my last relationship was with a christian, and we were engaged, he broke our engagement off out of no where, stomped on my heart, and completely ruined my life, of which i am still picking up the pieces. so, i am now dating a non-christian. that was not a conscious decision, it's just how it worked out. he is loving, caring, and during these months of financial ruin, thanks to the last guy, he has nearly supported me. i asked my pastor father if he wanted to meet him, and he reminded me that i am not supposed to be unequally yoked, which again i know, and then said, "i need some time." i am in complete shock and awe. for those of you who are not familiar with bible terms, unequally yoked means christians are only supposed to date christians. 2 corinthians 6:14 says "Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?" i am still shocked though. we all sin everyday. we speed. some of us swear. we call people "dumb jerks" or whatever phrase we use. people lie. and now i guess i am sinning by dating a non christian. well, he's wonderful to me and i love him. and now my dad has to have time to make up his mind as to whether or not he wants to meet him. i just don't get it. Jesus hung out with prostitute, thieves, tax collectors, and all kinds of other sinners. my dad meets all kinds of non christians every day in his job and other places and is nice to them, but needs time to decide whether or not he wants to meet my boyfriend. this makes zero sense to me. it's just all part of being a pastor's daughter, and the effect it has had on my life...